who else thinks like that about me

so this is the thanks I get for being her friend ha?

ok. kersha and crystal alwasy took turns giving me rides to school. it was all kersha's idea. and tonight she says "how about crystal does it all the time because i have all my meetings and stuff" and i was all "um....ok"  then later i got out of the shower and crystal had called so i called her back to tell her, she was really pissed and she told me that kersha had been planning some way to stop giving me rides for some time because she said quote "GRR she's SO ANNOYING!!!"

well what the fuck? and i begin to wonder, who else doesn't want me around

what other people just want me to die because i'm obnoxious, wierd, stupid, hyper, and other things about me that they hate? who else!?!?!?! i know some people that don't talk crap behind my back wishing that i would just get out of their lives. thsoe are the people i trust. but there are other people I know there are who just want me to rot in hell.

well honestly, if you want to say something to me just say it. and don't be anonymous either. i'm sick of this. I know that people talk about me when i'm not around. well what the fuck?!!?! just say it to my face. i swear i won't get too upset. beacuse all i ever was to anyone was a friend. so what the hell.

just kick me while i'm down why don't you?

nikki